Just Keep Swimming...

(Side note: despite the past two post titles, I can't actually swim, I'm just on a Finding Nemo kick lol)

Friday, definitely made me feel more comfortable and relaxed about my job. We had our staff meeting and I got to meet the lady I'll be in the school with and be working with everyday. She is awesome. Plus, I got to ask all my thousands of questions and they never got frustrated with me. We went to the school and I saw where we will be set up and just got a lot of my nerves settled. It was good, I really needed it after how I felt Thursday evening.

Saturday, I had CPR training. A good friend of mine was the trainer so it was pretty laid back and fun. It went smoothly and then I finally got a day off today. It was nice to relax and get up without an alarm clock after six days.

Tomorrow, Battlefield has orientation and I'm working a table to try and get more people enrolled in our program. Then, we'll be setting up the office and going through our supplies since the first day of school is Tuesday. I'm ready to get the first week of school under my belt and get into a routine. 

I remember when I first started putting in applications for a job I was so scared all jobs would be like GEICO. I know it sounds morbid but I hated going to work so much that I almost wished to be in a car accident, just so I wouldn't have to go into work. Being on a phone 8 hours a day, being yelled and screamed out for something you have no control over is ridiculous. You have to have a tough outer shell and be able to not let people get to you. But, I wear my emotions on my sleeve and every time I was called a nasty name or yelled at, it was hard to not take it personally. 

When I initially created this blog it was to help me deal with my anxiety and panic with getting back into the work force, but really anxiety affects all aspects of my life and I'm going to broaden my writing and go ahead and include all aspects where it plays a factor. I have been exhausted this week even though I haven't been working full 8 hour days. My anxiety just takes some much out of me and so, I tend to sleep a lot. I have napped almost everyday that I've worked, but I can't be critical of myself because at least I'm going to work. I have yet to back down or let me nerves get the best of me. Caffeine also makes things worse, so I have being doing my best to avoid it.

It's getting late though so I'm signing out for now.